Tired

back to work...everyone says the same thing to me...."Wah, so long never see you leh." Haha. Anyway, I enjoyed the busi-ness in work. Though the air-con made me feel very sleepy, I still managed to pull through all. Yeah.

Today, an aunty who is close to us told us about some officers in ICA building...haha...interesting. We all have common feel about those officers. Some very important people came today to check on every ICA worker. Heard that if they didn't perform well, they'll get sacked. They have to go through interviews, and we saw them "studying" so hard, reading notes, etc. And the officers have to go through an online quiz or something. Wow, hope their system really can work well.

Yesterday's interview....
I saw my course-mate at ST marine. He was also applying for the same job. After the interview, the person-in-charge brought me to the shipyard to "tour" around that place. it was really quite "exciting". First time get so close to cargo ships. It's really an eye-opener. Never really thought of whether I'll get in or not. My mind is getting tired of all these interviews.


oh, my current phone is giving the same problem as the previous one. The memory card slot can't detect the memory card. haiz~ why always lidat? Different brand, still give same problem. Is there any problem with the phone or me? Feel sad over it.

Feeling tired...shall end here.

I love you more than what you can imagine.

A sentence like this is enough to make me touch for a whole day, especially when it is from the mouth of someone you truly love.

What is love then?
A simple four-lettered word, yet it bonds people together, affects their emotions, and even life and death. So powerful, yet the meaning of it may differs for different people. How amazing it can be to bring two strangers together, and even spend the rest of their lives together.

Boi is really adorable all the time. He has a simple mind, but he is always very true to people. He has a good heart. He'll give unconditionally to people who need his help. Perhaps that is why he gained many good friends. Something I find it weird....boi isn't anywhere near good-looking, yet many people that I know commented that he is quite pleasant-looking when I showed them his photo. Hmm, mostly aunties lar...so maybe that's the reason why he can communicate well with the aunties..haha..Anyway, from certain angle, he still looks not bad..hehe..maybe he has to do something to his teeth, complexion and his figure, before he can reach good-looking...haha...oopz~

He constantly told me "I love you" in the midst of our conversation. haha. He is really cute. He mentioned that it is the least he can do to show how much he loves me. ok, it sounded a bit mushy. And yesterday, he told me that he loves me more that what I can imagine. Hmm, actually I know. He always put me before himself. But of course, business is first lar...haha..I'm always second. *pout* followed by his family....then, himself. Really enjoyed every moment that I've spent well with him.

I missed going out with him, to explore new places....but fuel price is on the rise, we can't spend too much on it. Everytime, we went petrol station, boi will grumble about how much more he has to pay compared to the past. felt so heartache to hear that. Anyway, I wish we can have time going to different places together. I dislike shopping malls, actually. I go there only when I want to get some stuff. I prefer places like parks, hills, and some new places that I've yet to explore. Missed those days...I know boi always have a hard time thinking of where to go. We even quarrelled over such things before. So, I've tried not to hiam the places that he suggested. I just feel that we should spend some quality time together, the place is not a major issue. I'm still learning, and I wish I can be a better girlfriend. :)

Alright, I need to get prepared. Take care, everyone!

Air supply tickets

Thanks Andrew & Angeline for the treat to Air Supply Concert. They bought two tickets for boi, since they know boi love Air Supply so much. Also, they mentioned that it's a time for boi to spend some time with me...haha...so happy! They are very thoughtful.

Yesterday's interview was quite cui. Shall not make myself feel more sad. Anyway, I don't have much hope that I will get into the company. Whatever the case is, it's over. So, shall 加油 for today's interview.

I feel that I'm having a marathon. Gone for 3 interviews in 3 days. Hopefully, this coming one can be a good one. Feeling a bit tired over these few days. Interview can be so tiring. haha.

CONVOCATION 2008!

MSE Convocation 2008 will be held on Friday, 25 July 2008, 2pm.

I can only have 2 seats for my family & friends....hope boi can go. :)


Hope it will not rain later. I don't wish to be drenched for interview. I took 3-days leave from ICA. Hopefully no one is cursing me for taking so many days leave. haha. Alright, 加油 for the interview later!

Tests

Just came back from the tests. What tests? It's some personality test and test that requires lotsa concentration & brain....Yar, I was called up by CAAS to go for the tests. It wasn't an interview. It's something BEFORE the interview. They will notify us in two-weeks time. I wish and not wish I can get it. I don't know why. Just feel that there are really alot to think about before getting this job.

Anyway, I met a new "friend". A guy named Alvin. He was going for the same tests as me. Haha. We were chatting while waiting for the HR people to come. He's from NUS Mech Eng, fresh grad...Just met him, and yet we can talk so much. Shows how powerful his PR skills are. I think he will get this job ba. His results for the personality test seems much better than mine. haha. Yup, made a friend....and I don't think I will see him again lar..so, shouldn't consider a friend. Ok, it's confusing.

Did I mention that the reception area of CAAS is super big and grand? Such a big place, yet only one person, who is the receptionist, works in that area. Looks grand but quite intimidating. haha. Got take some photos, coz I know I won't be able to come back.

Tomorrow is another round of interview...followed by wednesday....wow! How I wish I can get into one of them. alright, shall not think so much for the present moment. Wish me all the best ba.

a hundred-dollar note

Dad handed to me a $100 note just now. I was shocked. I don't understand why he wanted to give me money. He told me that I may need the money to get clothes, food, etc. but I'm earning money from my part-time job...I can afford to pay for my own stuff. He just stuffed me with the money, even if I rejected.

Upon receiving the amount, I felt ashamed. I'm already 23, yet I still need to get money from my parents. I know how hard they have to undergo to earn every cent, that's why I needed a job so badly to lessen their loads. Hope I really can get a job soon, so that I won't disappoint them again. I don't want to.

Helping my dad is a necessity in my life. I don't understand why there are people who think that it's not their responsibility to help their parents out. Do they even appreciate whatever their parents have done? To even earn ample for shelter, food and schooling? it's easy to request for money by just telling their parents, but they don't know how hard it is to fork out the sum. But a small request from parents to do something for them seemed so impossible. Ironic! Hope I can knock some senses into them....

Alright, time to go.

Pray for me!

it's not an obligation....but I wish people can sprinkle some luck on me and ensure that I will not fumble later with the tests and questioning....Also, for tomorrow...

As the clock ticks, I'm feeling more and more uneasy..must be my nervousness! I have no appetite since last night, and feel like puking...haiz~ my heart just can't beat properly...anxiety is really bad for health. Hope I can do well.


ps: Yesterday is a special day. Thanks boi... :)

Good news come hand-in-hand too.

I have a aim, don't say I'm very bo liao...My aim is to get healthy skin on my face....I know it's a bit bo liao, but I think that's the least I can do for my face. :)

First time in my life I saw glow on my cheeks after I wash my face...so smooth till light can be reflected...haha....but I still have pimples lar, can't help. Anyway, I hope to maintain this condition...with fewer/no pimples on the face..haha. Boi, you must also take care of your face...

I love boi so much!! He was supposed to go back for reservist on my birthday...I was quite sad upon hearing it. Why so suay? then today, boi managed to defer his date to 15 Aug..yeah! at least I can have an enjoyable birthday with boi.. Thanks!

Also, I received a few calls today. Those calls that made me really happy...anyway, I will not reveal them until everything is confirmed. :)

oh, boi's grandma is persuading boi to get married again...Now no money, how to get married? We need to start saving first before we can even talk about marriage. Wait till I get a job, I shall start saving with boi...yeah, will discuss with boi again.

Alright, time to bathe. Tomorrow will be a hectic day...FYI, in ICA, Monday, Friday and Saturday are always dreadful, coz the crowd is really terrible.

Update

Last Sunday, I went Mount Faber with my family and relatives. Maybe it has been too long since I exercised, and maybe I still have not recovered, I puked after climbing 15 storeys of stairs, followed by giddiness..anyway, I'm ok after some rest, and we continued. I felt so unhealthy.


pictures gotten from my sister's blog, coz I too lazy to upload...anyway, some of those were my contribution..haha...





The Henderson Waves!









It was a very hot day, as you can see....but I enjoyed the day out with my cousins...

met boi for dinner after that. I seriously misses him a lot. These few days, I seldom get to meet him. We were both busy with our stuffs. One week meets only once, for dinner only...haiz~ Anyway, I have my work to do to stop me from interrupting boi...and create less problem for him...haha..

Talking about my work, I'm currently working in ICA (Immigration & Checkpoints Authority)....everyday is like a battle, so busy, and never ends...haha. made more new friends these few days...so happy! Yar, I know...I always find jobs that is walking distance to my home...haha. Also, I can see some celebs, at times, when they come to retrieve their passports. ok, nothing more to say, other than lotsa OT.

On Vesak Day, I met hy and cy for KTV...I can't sing much, coz of my sore throat (then). It's super ex and the staffs' attitudes sux somemore, really dislike Kbox more and more. Ok, but I enjoyed meeting them.

Yesterday & today....work and work...never-ending. Nothing really boost me to go work, other than to earn money. Life is sad. I wish I can find a perm job asap. No photos of my work place, coz that's ICA rule....no photo-taking in those areas that I worked in! haiz~

All the best for boi's event today! hopefully it is a great success!!! *pray pray*

Finally got the time to blog

have been really busy with work...that work is really energy-draining! Feel so tired everyday...was sick for the past few days and still have to do OT...can imagine right?

haha...my friends have been complaining why I always not free...haiz~...not I want lor, but the job is lidat..First day of work, I ended up with muscle aches....I can't even walk properly when I reached home...lied on the sofa whole night, and can't even walked to my bedroom...see how pathetic...maybe it's due to lack of exercise ba..haha...but now feel much better...

I somehow can adapt to the life there..though very busy, the staffs are all very nice. Hopefully it will last. Made many new friends there, but all younger than me. I'm the OLDEST for the first time. They all don't believe k...they thought I just finished my 'A' levels...gosh! but some really very cao lao lar..oopz~ haha. they were all very friendly lor. We chatted and gossipped a bit here and there when we are free. That's life.

and finally, I really mean finally....I'm taking up driving. I forced myself to travel to Ubi to register from basic theory test..arrrhhhh..don't know if I should be happy. Very scared that I'll end up regretting. hmm...

Met Pei, Liying & Shiying last thursday....
I enjoyed it a lot! SOOooooooooo long never see them le..felt like I've been back to my Secondary school days. SW wasn't there coz she sick. more to update....SY, send me the PHOTOS!!!!

ok, shall end here...very tired...gonna rest soon. :)

Perception

Something interesting...my sis showed me yesterday....

Who do you see in the picture? Albert Einstein or Marilyn Monroe? Look at the picture...and take about 5 steps back, and look into the picture again...

The trick in these images lies in the way they are created. Take two original images - Albert Einstein and Marilyn Monroe, say, as on the previous page. The photo of Einstein is passed through software that keeps sharp details such as nose wrinkles but filters out gross features like mouth size. Conversely, the image of Marilyn is passed through software filters that do the opposite, keeping only her coarse features. In each case, the software breaks down each picture into its “spatial frequencies”. The low frequencies come from features that change gradually over the picture, like skin tones. Edges and sharp lines translate into high frequencies. Einstein gets his low frequencies removed, so only his sharp-contrast features remain, while Marilyn gets her high frequencies removed, so she looks blurred (see “The making of Marilyn Einstein”). Superimpose the results and you get the hybrid image, a face that looks like Einstein up close but Marilyn from farther away.

What’s going on in your brain when you look at these pictures? The standard view is that when you look at a scene, your brain processes visual information at different scales in parallel. By flashing hybrid images before people for various lengths of time and recording what the viewers said they saw, Oliva and Schyns discovered that there is a timing difference when it comes to processing the different resolutions.

The processing for coarse features, such as groups of large objects, happens fastest, within 50 milliseconds, giving the viewer an immediate general sense of the scene; then come the finer details like edges and faces, which take 100 milliseconds or more to register. If you caught only a glimpse of a city street scene, for instance, you’d tend to notice the buildings before the pedestrians.

To build on their discovery, the researchers wanted a more effective way to demonstrate this boundary between competing brain processes. Together with Antonio Torralba at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, they refined hybrid images to produce more enduring and reversible illusions, like the ones above, that depend on your distance from the image.

*gotten from this website.



Isn't it interesting? haha. hope it will make your day. :)

Presentation over!!

don't know if I'm happy, but I know that I can finally sleep well...hehe.
Today's presentation was quite ok. Hopefully can do well...though quite difficult. my feet are aching due to a whole day of high-heels...I hate covered (new) shoes!!
I dragged my feet home, and I think I walked awkwardly, because many people were staring at me...haiz~ always 出洋相...

Anyway, there is problem with NTU studentlink again....it better be ok by tomorrow morning. Starting my work soon...as a temp worker...yar lar, I still can't find a proper job lar...sian~ Chatted with cy just now on phone...she slept the whole afternoon!!!! and called me when I was about to have my dinner...haha...anyway, I'm glad that she also do fine. Left with hy...tomorrow is her last battle.. 加油！

Oh, I bought a Seikisho mask white from Kose.



*photos from kose website

Haven't use it yet...hopefully it's good. I have quite high expectation on this brand...haha...anyway, if it is good, maybe I will end up switching to using that brand. that's when I got the money..haha...anyway, shall try first.

oh, hope boi will do well for his exams....加油！
I can help him jot down important points so that he won't have to read thru so much..but don't know if it will help.

*ahhheeemmmm*

Why do I always have sore throat just before the day of presentation? Maybe I've been practising too much. haha. Am quite scared of tomorrow's presentation....I just wish it will be over soon. Will do my best, but whether I will do well or not is another matter.

Went NTU with boi to Hall 11 to help Jian Tong with the move. Ate the food at Canteen 11...not bad leh..haha. Oh, nothing much to say lar...I just enjoyed helping people. So, must write it down to make my day happy. haha.

The weather is so hot recently. I really can't stand it. Can't even sleep properly, and yet we are not turning on the air-con...save electricity, fight global warming (haha...yar rite.) hopefully the weather will be more cooling tonight. I want a good sleep. :)

ok, boi's reaching...
we are going out for dinner..hehe.

PPT preparation

phew...finally I'm finishing my ppt slides...

going out soon...shall let boi take a look at my slides and do my speech with him...haha...hopefully there is no errors....quite scared.

Boi's coming...

bye!

Labour day

boi came over to my house at 10.30am. We met so early because boi wanted to watch Superhero....travelled to Cathay and PS, there was either no Superhero showed on that day, or the timing wasn't right. Boi was so sad, but I can't do anything...so we went walking around PS before we headed to boi's house to study (for him) and to read my FYP report...

we met Kian at 7.30pm...he was flying to Alaska, so we had a dinner at Serangoon Garden before we sent Kian to the Airport....he will only be back in September...
Anyway, I reached home at almost 12 midnight. My family wasn't happy, but I don't care. It's not that I don't want to come home early...

anyway, got a scolding from my mother (again!!!!). Boi and I thought she had become more understanding, but NO! She'll never change. I hate talking to her.....so hypocritical..when need me, talk to me like an "angel", and when don't need me, don't even realise my existence. I'm used to it. How I wish she can really treat me like never exist....everything also wanna put a leg into it. What's worse is, she always misinterpret everything...just scold like nobody's biz...I don't even bother to argue back this time. Just let her scold lar...when she used up her energy, she'll shut up. So, that's my mentality..I just turn a deaf ear.

I know you guys may think that I'm bad to my mum. I would like to say, I'm totally disheartened. I don't even treat her as a mother. I just do whatever I can to prevent her mouth from opening. I did help her out when she needs me, so I'm not heartless. The only thing I wish is, I wish she can don't bother about me and everything that is related to me, learn to be understanding, and don't scold me as a way to relieve her stress. So simple, yet it's never going to happen.

My sisters are the same...they always think I'm wrong. Because my mum treats them so well. Since when you can see her scold them everyday? never...since when they have to do housework, when they don't want to? never....Me? If I say I don't want, I'm asking for trouble. Since when they have to share my parents' problems? never...
Whatever. I wish to leave this family asap, if I am capable enough....I will.


Yup, that's my lousy Labour Day. On the whole, I still enjoyed it since getting my family against me is already part and parcel of life...haha. Oooh, I need to continue with my FYP slides....

Have a great weekend.